I just got bored I'm writing crap

Well, i dont know how to express this feeling but i feels like i use my-a-year-ago-head. This is sounds silly, but i cannot find any other good expression. Sometimes i felt lost in my head. What am I doin here? Why we talkin like this? Why people feelin sad? Why am I writing this?


In this phase of this feeling, im really sure i dont need anybody. I just have to close my eyes, pretend who i want to be, living in the past maybe, or eating donut with peanut butter on the beach. Actually i dont really understand people, well i dont understand myself either, i didnt know what is the purpose from all this shit. Oh gosh, am I bullshitting? I hate people!! I really am!!!

Man, you know when you're fucked in the head...you talk bullshit. I need an escape. Somewhere far, smells like beach, nobody knows you, silent but not too silent, you can jump from 30,000 feets but you dont break your ass off, somewhere in nowhere. Somewhere you can lean your head on. Somewhere you dont have any fuckin responsibilities. Somewhere you dont remember your shitty past. Or somewhere you dont know who you are. Okay i'll stop writing this. writing this shit is harder than I expected. i'm fuckin dizzy now.